Heyya everyone…. Remember me? ^^”
Jeez where should I even start from…
It’s been more than two months since the last time I posted in my blog. While I should’ve said something regarding the hiatus before, my emotional state wasn’t really at its top form. So what actually happened? Am I back for real or not? Will I collect all the dragon balls? Find out in this episode of Sup Ryuuji. (Sorry for starting off with such a bad joke)
Let’s start from the most basic problem which lead to the hiatus, school. While my grades and stuff weren’t exactly a problem, the fact that I am in the senior year does puts in a lot of pressure. I had to start studying for the first semester even before the classes started, and I’m STILL trying to catch up to everything; yeah, that’s how bad things are in the academic level. My daily routine includes going to school at 6 AM (Why so early…), returning home by 2 PM and then leaving again for cram school till 9 PM. By the time I come back home, I’m literally dying for some sleep, but sadly, I still have to do some self-study. However, my summer vacations starts from today so I guess I will be free for the daytime at least; that means I can stay up all night! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! Anyways, now let’s get onto my next problem.
I can’t write. That’s right; I can’t write anything for my blog. I don’t know if this is what they call ‘A writer’s block’, but it’s at least something along that line. It’s so bad that this current post took me more than 10 tries and a fortnight to complete. There are all these monthly posts that I need to catch up on, and so many ideas that I want to pen, but damn, all these passive-aggressive hurdles are getting suffocative.
Now, here comes the biggest (And the most pathetic) reason for my hiatus, disappearance from Twitter and maybe, also my writer’s block. I recently broke up with my gf. It was a long distance relationship (Yeah, but we weren’t really that far away from each other). Things were rough for the last 2-3 months, but the week long fight sealed the break up pact. Allegations were made from both party, but I still don’t know if they were all just our speculations, or the real deal. Of course, I can’t go on to the details about our problems in public, so the only thing that you guys should know is that it completely broke me. I couldn’t stop studying (You guys know why), but even breathing seemed to be difficult. I started to avoid all kinds of social platforms I was active in, as it kept reminding me of ‘Us’. I’m still not completely over it, and maybe it will take me more than a year to move on totally, but I think my phobia from the social medias have reduced a lot. (Jeez, it makes me sound so weak damn…)
Finally, the future of the blog; thankfully, it is summer vacation now, so I have been thinking of making a Fortnight long special post. While I’m also working on my monthly posts, I guess I will try to catch up with them and post two of them? Well, its not decided yet but I am trying to make a comeback. A certain topic has gained my interest so, stay tuned for that! Besides these stuff, I gotta get back to reading and commenting on my fellow bloggers, especially my favorite few. It’s gonna be tough, I can feel it~
With that, this post comes to an end. I apologize to all of you for not being active for this long, and maybe even for the deteriorated quality of my posts; I hope that things get better soon. Until next time, I hope you guys have a great time, and as always, thanks for reading!